Monday, August 10, 2009


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For 2 days

I have been content. For 2 days. That should be considered a miracle. I haven't thought I would rather be elsewhere, I haven't tried to leave the house. Ian and I talked alot about nothing, Emily was adorable, me and Kayla played games, I organized, I sweated alot but loved it. I finally finished Money and the Law of Attraction last night, it was the first time in ages I could feel positive enough to absorb the information. Our desktop broke on Saturday. I thought that would really suck, but it hasn't been. Ian has used my laptop, I've used the old laptop just for checking email and stuff. haven't really missed the desktop so much. I am hoping to get in a better feeling place about heading back to work. Abraham always says in all things, seek what will give you relief. The better feeling thought. Instead of thinking about the fighting that was going on the last day of work, I will think about Emily being happy to see all her friends, and the income that comes from working, seeing my coworkers who are my friends and etc. It is a relief to think of that rather than the disagreements.

My sister is the leader of the Fight With Tools Binghamton branch. We had a meeting the other night where we were working on what our action items would be and where our focus would be. I think what s really awesome is the new idea to focus on fixing ourselves to become more whole individually rather than try and work on fixing everyone and everything. One of the things was to work on bringing more beauty into our own personal world. By doing art, music, singing, etc. I can do that. What was really cool is we chose the economy to be our focus. By focusing on our own personal economy and local. One of those things was to think up any new business ideas. I have been contemplating starting a Lifestyle Photography Business. I have to make pancakes right now otherwise I would go into detail about how wonderful and exciting it would be.

I am going to post a couple pics cause I love doing that:)

Saturday, August 8, 2009

Getting back to normal

I have been off of work all summer, since mid May. I thought I would get a lot done, relax a lot, go to some parks, you know. But then the weather was AWFUL!! Then I was taking Kayla to dance, and then to fishing camp, then vacation of course, then my brother in law was here for 2 weeks and now it's only about a week till I go back to work!! Wow the summer flew by. Taking Kayla to fishing camp was a ton of fun though, because it was at the nature center where they have a lot of animals and a pond full of fish to feed. At both drop off and pick up we would Emily and I would spend about an hour there just looking at the animals and feeding fish. We had a lot of fun. Vacation rocked, we were at Oak Island. Since I graduated from college my parents bought me a new lens for my camera and I got some awesome shots. I would like to get a raise from work, now that I have my 4 year degree, even though it is not in Early Childhood. We will see. I am hoping.

Sunday, February 8, 2009

So here I sit

Today I bought a special treat for myself. It is called Singstar and it is a blast!! I get made fun of and make fun of myself more my singing impairment and my ability to completely make up words to songs. Then years later I will hear a song and exclaim out loud while laughing "Ohhh that's what he says there!!! I thought it was....". So I bought Singstar so i can sing as much as I want, and it has the lyrics, and it will even tell me if I am on key. Not that I care about the on key part of it but whatever. So that was very special fun and enjoyment and I did that for two hours straight tonight, even though my neck is killing me because I did something to it...what? I don't know. But it's hurt for about 5 days now, and the internet says it could be meningitis....really???? AHHH. I don't think so. But if it doesn't get better to the doctor I go. I am taking a jazz class, that is a little more hip hop than jazz. I have never done hip hop, so it is veerrry interesting. I am going to try to get out this week, even though it is wet and muddy and everything, and take some pictures. Wish me luck!!

Friday, February 6, 2009

Beautiful words

Recently I completed the 25 random things about myself post that is going around facebook. The very first one is that most of the time I am thinking in beautiful, lyrical words, but when it comes down to putting the words on paper or computer, I fail miserably. That I think is something important I should work on, along with taking more photographs.

Isn't it interesting how so much can be going on in one small space? I am extremely near sighted, in fact, I have to hold something a mere one inch from my eyes in order to see it. But when I do, I see every minute detail. In the space from one knuckle to the other I found something fascinating. A purple line. A deep purple line that delved into the the cracks of my fingers. I am not sure if it was a marker, paint or a crayon from work, but there it was. A reminder that my days are filled to the brim of childlike fun. Hanging from my finger in that same area was a perfect little droplet, just waiting to kerplunk into the steaming bathwater. Perhaps by narrowing my sights, taking off my glass and looking a lot closer I will find the ability to really and truly see.